In all the chaos around me, however, there are a two things of which I am certain. 1) I am Jewish. This is a big deal since stating that fact simultaneously states something I am not: catholic (which is how I was raised); 2) I am a mother and (surprisingly) love the responsibilities that come with that occupation.
Everything else in life right now is unsteady. Of course the two certainties listed above also have a lot of variables, things with which I struggle on a daily basis (am I being the Jew I envisioned my self being: observant, devoted? I'm a being a good mother in the way that I teach my son/discipline my son, am I possibly scarring him psychologically for the rest of his life?) but at the end of the day I am sure of only those two things: I am a Jewish mother.
I've been getting inside my head a lot as I struggle with the unexpected so it's time I lay it all out there (for my sake and for posterity).
